I've been teaching for a month and a half now. And it still blows my mind that I'm a teacher. Let me be blunt here: teaching is kicking my ASS! But, I love it. Who gets to do every day what they love? It comes with a price tag. I can't stand the administrative part of the job, but there's no getting away with it. And I've forgotten what it's like to be well-rested. But, Thanksgiving break is a month away. I'll be grateful for a few days away from the school.
The kids are great. They drive me nuts, but I love them. They're my responsibility now. It's terrifying if I let myself think about it. I'm responsible for 20 people's educations! Cut that thought...
All in all, although it's one of the most difficult things I've ever done and I'm stressed to the max, I'm grateful to finally be teaching, and to have come impossibly far from where I was almost exactly a year ago.
Unfortunately, the writing has gone by the wayside, as is evidenced by the lack of new blog posts. And since my weeks are so crazy, I'm adamant about having my weekends. Well, not really... More times than not, I'm in the classroom at least one day out of the weekend. BUT, when I'm not, I take my sanity time.
Personal developments continue. I'm still making my journey to wherever the hell I'm supposed to be, and still trying to maintain the faith that I'll get there. It's a struggle to balance the personal with the work life right now, but I'm determined. The trick is not letting the job swallow me. I'm getting better...
In other areas, I'm not giving anything away. Suffice it to say that all is well, and it'll be even better once I finally get things balanced and don't feel so drained from work.
Keep your head up.
J
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I coulda stayed in that place too long
I woulda made it okay for you to do me wrong
I woulda played the role one more day
If I didn't hear my conscience say
Stop, look around
This is where you belong
Look at yourself
Are you weak, are you strong
I realized that it's all up to me
To make myself happy...
Giving up on those things that hurt me
Made me who I am today
--Brandy
Monday, October 6, 2008
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